Introspection

In the midst of my life’s toughest battle, I stumbled upon a harsh reality: the people who say they love you, who you’ve let into your heart and life, can abandon you when you need them the most. During my darkest hour, I faced a collective onslaught of added misery from those I thought I could count on. Feeling shattered, I couldn’t help but question myself. How did I miss the true nature of these relationships? Were the warning signs there all along, hidden by my desire to see the best in people? I’ve always known nobody’s perfect, but where did I go wrong in trusting those who would willingly hurt me?

My love runs deep, and I fiercely protect those I care about. Yet, somehow, I ended up loving those who couldn’t or wouldn’t love me back. The weight of depression and self-disgust bore down on me as I realized I had entrusted my heart to the wrong people. Anger simmered within me as I wondered what could have been if I had received the emotional and mental support I deserved. Why was I left to navigate this darkness alone, without a comforting embrace or a shoulder to lean on? Despite being surrounded by people, I felt utterly alone, betrayed by those who were supposed to offer me solace and protection.

To my surprise, a recurring theme emerged – I was the common denominator. To break free from this cycle, I embarked on a journey of introspection, delving deep into my soul. What was it about me that attracted these dysfunctional dynamics? What patterns was I unknowingly reinforcing, and what behaviors was I allowing to sustain these disappointing outcomes? This revelation hit me like a ton of bricks, shaking me to my core. It was eye-opening to finally understand my role in these relationships after all this time.

I couldn’t believe how blind I’d been to the fact that my choices, my daily interactions with family, my significant other, colleagues, and friends – even my connection with God – were not authentic reflections of my true self. In a sudden moment of clarity, it hit me hard: I’d been tirelessly trying to fix everything and everyone around me, neglecting my own needs in the process. It’s like a cruel joke – my career’s on the rise, yet my personal life is crumbling. Amidst this contradiction, I failed to see the slow erosion of my own well-being. Despite convincing myself that love was my guiding light, I was unwittingly steering myself towards a gradual downfall.

Amidst all the chaos, a nagging thought wouldn’t leave me alone – maybe this is my karma, payback for some past misstep, whether in a previous life or in this one. It feels like punishment for something, and the sheer absurdity of it hits hard. I hadn’t exactly been living a lavish life, nor did I possess anything particularly valuable or enjoy any special status. And yet, here I was, feeling like a target for simply wanting to love and be loved in return.

In my desperate bid to salvage these connections, I poured my heart and soul into proving my affection, speaking words of encouragement, and highlighting their strengths. Yet, over time, it dawned on me that my efforts were draining me dry. While I tirelessly uplifted others, no one seemed to return the favor by affirming my own identity or offering me the same kind of support. I found myself empty, with no one there to replenish my spirit, guide me forward, or help me unearth who I truly am beyond my various roles.

The departure of those dear to me served as a harsh wake-up call – I had neglected to reserve anything for myself. I had given everything I had – my resources, my strength, my time, and my energy – without setting aside anything for my own well-being. Living from one day to the next, I sought solace in my work, hoping to mask the pain that gnawed at my soul. The chain of events left me grappling with PTSD and an overwhelming sense of trauma that felt almost insurmountable.

As I reflected on my entire existence, one question reverberated through my mind: What is my purpose in this world? Amidst all the uncertainty, one thing remained crystal clear—I refuse to be anyone’s victim. In the midst of this turmoil, I realized that I had drifted so far from my connection with God that I had forgotten a crucial truth: Even Jesus, the embodiment of love, was accused, betrayed, tortured, and crucified by those he loved who didn’t reciprocate that love. Judas, one of his closest companions, ultimately betrayed him to his enemies. This was my own cross to bear.

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Elevating Excellence through Years of Expertise

Amber’s remarkable journey in property management and her extensive experience as a high-level executive serve as a testament to her unwavering commitment to excellence. With an impressive eight-year track record in on-site property management and an additional ten years specializing in resident screening within the multi-family housing sector as Senior Vice President, Amber emerges as a seasoned authority in her field. Beyond her role, she actively engages in esteemed national, and regional apartment associations like NAA, LAA, GLAA, IAA, and GCNKAA, through fundraising, committee participation, and board involvement.

Education stands as Amber’s abiding passion, evident through her illustrious industry credentials, including NALP, CAM, and CAS. Yet, what truly distinguishes her is her unwavering dedication to imparting invaluable experiences and insights by instructing NALP and CAM classes to fellow industry professionals. Her contributions have garnered recognition from esteemed associations such as The Louisville Apartment Association, The Lexington Apartment Association, The Cincinnati Apartment Association, and IREM Chapter 59. Amber’s impact is far-reaching, with her primary focus on elevating industry standards and fostering meaningful community relationships at the core of her journey.

Meet Prenashee

A Journey of Transformation and Success

Prenashee’s professional journey took her across the United States, where she embarked on a mission as a National Trainer to enhance, empower, and lead teams within an expansive multi-family property portfolio. Her expertise revolved around the meticulous assessment of property performance and the strategic implementation of action plans that delivered rapid boosts in occupancy percentages and revenue streams. Her ability to do so marked her as a top-tier professional within the industry. Ranked as the company’s top sales person consistently, her results were nothing short of impressive.

 

But what truly set Prenashee apart was her belief that success wasn’t just about a transaction. Her passion lay in the human element—the teams she worked with. Prenashee had a unique talent for inspiring those around her, reshaping their perspectives on their roles. She dedicated time to sit with team members, leading by example and guiding them to achieve substantial commissions. Today, some of Prena’s mentees have grown to manage their own properties, and some are managing their own firms—a lasting and sustainable legacy that speaks volumes about her impact. Her genuine care for the personal and professional growth of her teams is the truest measure of her success, lifting others to greater heights.

 

In addition to working in property management, Prenashee was approached to join a business management consulting firm specializing in diversity and inclusion, where her focus was on business development. This career shift was a turning point, offering not only invaluable mentorship but also exposing her to major conferences and trade shows that significantly broadened her professional network. It was during this period that Prenashee’s entrepreneurial spirit was ignited.

 

Her journey later took a profound twist when she took on the role of Chief of Staff in a multi-industry organization, working closely with an influential CEO. This transition placed her at the crossroads of corporate and entrepreneurial worlds, revealing the stark contrasts in how business operated. The experience brought forth a host of challenges, but it also unveiled the boundless potential of creative thinking, the calculated acceptance of risks, the cultivation of innovative ideas, and the power of collaborative efforts. This phase of her career was an eye-opener, reshaping her corporate skillset into a more personal, thrilling, and inspiring one.

 

Prenashee’s journey serves as a testament to her unwavering belief in the power of love and collaboration. Love serves as the cornerstone that ignites her passion and commitment to people, and it is profoundly gratifying for her to witness the success and incredible experiences of others. In a corporate landscape where the term “love” is often deemed unconventional, Prenashee remains resolute in keeping the spirit of love alive, firmly believing that it leads to enhanced collaboration, positive transformation, and a more profound impact. Love fosters enduring relationships, establishes trust, and contributes to the betterment of the world as a whole.

 

Today, she channels her passion for property management, leadership, and entrepreneurship into a new and exciting chapter, driven by the recognition that the world has evolved, and so too must our approach to business.

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